Grief, Memory, and the Things We Carry into December

There’s a line in the song that goes:
“And the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters but no pearls.”

If the holidays stir something tender, complicated, or heavy in you, you’re not alone.

This season often magnifies grief, not just the grief of people we’ve lost, but the grief of years that didn’t go the way we hoped, relationships we struggled to repair, mistakes we regret, or versions of ourselves we miss. Even joy can feel layered, like it has shadows around the edges.

Nostalgia mixes with loss.
Gratitude mixes with exhaustion.
Hope mixes with the fear that maybe we won’t change the patterns we meant to change.

One of the most healing things you can offer yourself is permission to feel everything without rushing it toward resolution.

You don’t need to “fix” grief.
You don’t need to force joy.
You don’t need to pretend the year didn’t bruise you in ways that still sting.

Instead, consider:

• What memory is resurfacing because it wants gentleness?

• What regret or shame is asking to be acknowledged, not judged?

• What part of you needs compassion rather than pressure?

If this month feels tender, that doesn’t mean you’re doing it wrong.
It means you’re being honest.